(via lovethemoves)

so you’re out today. i dont know what to say. i wish i did, im just pretty sure that my words dont matter to you.

i promise to be the last one.

“Good bye”…. i love you, always have … always will

circa survive - the great golden baby

Make your move, obvious humor,
desperate and respiratory plight.
Always on, dressed to impress,
I’ll be the last one to find out why.

Time takes its toll on us (this changes everything).
I’d be a liar if I denied you at all.
Oh, now that I know,
This changes everything.

I’ve been trading ideas with intriguing men, and I…
I perceive an honest solution to all of your pride

Time takes its toll on us (this changes everything).
I’d be a liar if I denied you at all.
Oh, now that I know,
This changes everything.
Oh, now that I know…
Oh, now that I know…

And the amplifier screams out loud for the last time.
Wave your hands at the audience as you sink on in.
First chance to hide, you need desperately so, find me, so.

Motion gives up on you in the end.
I’ll try my best to be home by then.
You’ll see the grace we had,
She’ll never have,
You’ll never have.

I’m going home but my own way.
I’m going home by my own…
I’m going home but my own way.
I’m going home by my own..

I would really love if you’d sit him down.
I would really love if you’d sit him down.
I would really love if you’d pull this thread.
I would really love if you’d pull this thread.
I would really love if you’d sit him down.
I would really love if you’d sit him down.
I would really love if you’d pull this thread
I would really love if you’d pull this thread

ha top left is p much standard position

right when you have a peaceful streak.. you always own yourself with a new form of communication. fuck instant messenger, txting and phone calls. what ever happened to real facetime in this world. thats why old people are so much closer than young people cause they know how to interact with eachother…. hmm which blog to whine to? blah blah same shit 

my body literally changes when something between us does. i had a nightmare enduced sweatfest last night because in my dream you were dating a girl named lindsey and going to wisconsin for a rave?! ^((*#$&(*&(@*#(

I don’t know if this is me or you… but I know, you’ve told me a million times: you’re not sad. I just assume you are. It feels like we go through week phases where you trust me and where you don’t. Weeks where I’m allowed to comment on your job and ask about your homework, and weeks where you don’t answer my phone calls. But why does that define a relationship to me? I don’t know, it doesnt really, cause I know that we don’t have a relationship, we just care about eachother and express that sometimes when it’s convenient.  Cause I know in my heart its impossible to have a relationship when one person is delusional, me. That’s why I’ve realized that this excerpt is about me. I’m a sad person because I have low expectations for happiness.

I let you throw me around like this, then silently at 2:30 am in the morning cry it all out to myself, knowing good well that without your good night reassurance that you still temporarily believe in our ‘relationship’ that it will be that much harder for me to put on this happy face tomorrow. From that point, my low expectations kick in - I smile at the smallest things that happen to me in the day just so I just dont literally want to jump over board, and I dont know if thats good or bad, I just know my chest hurts right now, and half the time I just dont want   I have no other friends that I trust, and a family that doesnt know me. Life is worst for others, and I know I’m being selifsh right now … I’m just always looking for your companionship, that companionship that I get every other week when you are here. Remember.. those times… when I listen to your same problems and you listen to the same things that I say about the world. … 

… REVIVE

i guess i need to stop wearing my emotions on my sleeve and not because of youe. theres just not time in our lives to deal with each others faults … 

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